Showing posts with label female inmate prison sadness friends family lonely depression fight violence mother baby. Show all posts
Showing posts with label female inmate prison sadness friends family lonely depression fight violence mother baby. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Day 153 (2/22/15) "One incident here, changed her life"

We got an update on "Baby". She's the one that spit on and fought two officers. She's looking at up to 18 years, 5 years for each officer, and additional years for each time she spit. I can't believe it. She's a baby. She's only 20 years old. One incident here, changed her life forever. One bad decision, one poor choice , and you can catch additional charges. You think you're going home and in a blink of an eye, you're going nowhere. It's why they don't give you an out date here (receiving). They give you an "expected release date". You have to keep your emotions in check, stay out of the game, do your time, and go home. We have been trying to tell NayNay this, but our new roommate is not as quiet and polite as she was on day one. She's got an attitude and a chip on her shoulder. She wants to fight and curse every cop she deals with. She's dying to fight someone, or so she says. So much for keeping to herself. She is in the mix and very stubborn . I figure she'll have to learn on her own. 
We had dinner late tonight. On the way to 4pm Meds, 4 "EOP's" got into a fight on the yard. Seems to be the norm nowadays . We started to get ready for inspection When a bunch of girls started chanting "we aren't cleaning up shit, the sergeant , he can suck a dick ! Hail Hitler !" Some of the women say the sergeant looks and acts like Hitler. He is very strict. If you don't walk in a straight line, he'll rip you right out of line, gives you a warning, and writes your name down on his clipboard. He's not one to mess with. But the girls had enough of the sergeant and this whole yard. So, they rebelled with their chanting. It was kind of funny, definitely entertaining from afar. It really pissed the sergeant off and our housing officer let us have it when we got back. It's a good thing we didn't have program that night, because we would have lost it. 

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Day 150 (2/19/15) "They leave and you feel alone"

Woke up today at 3am. The officer came to get Prego. He told her to pack up, she was leaving. She had 45 minutes. I was so happy for her. She's going to CIW until her release on March 5th. Now, she will be closer to home when she gets out and have the medical care she needs until then. We all helped her pack. This is what's best for her and her babies. But, I am going to miss her so much. My San Diego roomie, my Charger fan. How did I get attached to her so quickly ? To all these women in this room ? I couldn't sleep. It was a rough day. I think we all miss her presence and taking care of her and those babies.
No duckett and no program today. How frustrating ! I'm really tired of not being able to go outside . Last week and this week has been horrible ! Thinking about Prego leaving makes me want out of here that much more. I really want off A-Yard (receiving). Keeping my fingers crossed I see my counselor next week. Only 9 more days in this month.
We got our new roommate this afternoon. Her name is "NayNay". She is 21 years old and from LA. Just a kid. She seems sweet, very polite, and keeps to herself. I think she's going to fit in room 4 just fine !
Tonight was a good night despite not getting to program this evening. TT and Jazy are back to their normal fun selves. They laughed and joked about their fight. It was more like 2 sisters fighting rather than 2 enemies. I'm just happy things are getting back to "normal", whatever normal is anymore. Still missing Prego, but I think Smiley misses her the most. She was her "med buddy" and her room BFF. It's sad she is gone. You get comfortable, you have a temporary family and then they leave and you feel alone. Feels like it's day one all over again. Too much time on A-yard is rough. Tomorrow is another day, a better day.....I hope.